My Darkness is back, but its of a different kind, its scaring the shit out of me…
I will wait till the end of October for a final decision…
I killed him.
Every time I think about it I feel nauseated and almost going to throw up.
I don’t know if I can do this; my brain is telling me not to be stupid and just forget it, my heart is telling me to stick with it no matter how much painful it is. My brain is right, but I still have this stupid hope that everything goes as my heart predicts.I wonder how many days I can last…
Waiting for the good bad news…
For the last 10 days, I have been thinking a lot about LOTS of stuff, basically part of me has been stuck at the age of 14 and now Its catching up with me, one of those things were what I wanted from a woman, if you remember my old blog it was written here. But now I have just one requirement and its one of the hardest things you could find, since most marriages that fail are because the lack of it.
I just want a woman that I can really communicate with.
so you know which pronoun is what?
well ‘you’ is your darkened soul
the submissive part of you
but there are other yous
its the first time you comment on my blog
you’re very angry on your blog
i always check it out
but you’re always attacking ‘others’
this time I am attacking me
this is the first time you actually try to solve the problem from within
Some of the yous are mes, but none of the mes are yous.
Some of the shes are yous,and one you is she.
Some of the yous are other yous, and none of yous are all yous.
Some of the yous are plural yous, and most yous are not the same yous.
1)I am killing you slowly.
2)I am Dominant again.
3)I have a drive again, I am restarting where I left of 13 years ago.
4)I owe you a lot, but now we have to change.
5)I owe you my life. I really do, you have no clue how much you did. Someday I hope to own you.
PS: no body ask about explanations. Thanks.
Don’t ever think that I am running away from you, I can still hear your cries, but your influence is gone.I am enjoying things that I used to enjoy, the exact opposite of you.You just wait , I will be back and get rid of you once and for all.