Well since I came to Montreal I kinda been detached from what was happening in Lebanon and the middle east, a big part because of my previous job was draining every waking hour of time for it, and maybe people have noticed that this blog has much less Lebanon related posts and instead they are more like personal ones.
So maybe I should change the url and the title of this blog to something else. Oh btw, some people ask me about why I “hate myself”, guys/gals please read the “about the blog” page up, I explained it. I do not hate myself, it’s just an expression kinda :).
Anyway, I am looking forward to actually find another job, really hoping I would get the medical systems one, and the minute I get the job I am calling my motorcycle school so I can resume the classes that I had to cut to reserve money aside. I am still up to my goal to travel the world on a motorcycle for a while, might be boring alone, so hoping that in 5 years I would meet a partner for that. Preferably a hot, cute, smart, funny girl 😛 . I don’t know a lot of people who ride motorcycles and from all the people I ever met there was only one girl who used to ride motorcycles, so finding a female partner for that might be hard. Oh well :), I got 5 years :).So my interview is on monday, wish me luck.
In other news, I have been tired and sick for like a while now, but starting to recover slowly, that previous job really drained me. Lesson learned for my next job, I will only do my job and that’s it. No extras, the only way I am gonna go big is to open my own business, which I will work on it, and any spare time/ effort will go towards that instead of improving the current company I am working for.
Since I became 30, it hit me how much life is short, and really losing a year on something you don’t want to be doing is losing a serious percentage of your life, and it’s one of the reason it affected me to quit that damn job, there is more to life than being behind the computer coding and building a product to a company that doesn’t really care about its users and employees. On the plus side, I know that aiming to get what ever I want is worth it even if it takes ages, at the end the process of getting it is as important as getting it.
I am not sure if because I have been writing about a certain girl in here or because she never really left my thoughts , I have been having recurrent dreams about her and they all good, I miss her. She has been an important part of what I am today, she has been a big part of accepting what I am and be less hard on myself, and also even that we haven’t been talking for close to a year, the anger that I had all resolved and the source was found because of my lack of proper communication, decision, acts , etc. In that period we were both really fucked up in one way or another and it affected everything. hope one day I’ll meet her again and tell her that personally.
I have been using a macmini since August and frankly I am liking it more and more, Linux is great for work but the convenience of mac is superbe, of course there are a few problems like all Operating Systems but as long as I have the terminal all is good, plus the Mac Store is really awesome plenty of cool free apps and I can just browse the database on the fly with proper ratings from other users so all cool :). I miss having multiple computers in my office room, I have now 3, but none of them are powerful. the macmini, an old computer and an old laptop, I need a powerful new machine with multi screens, will see what I get…
I have been drooling over the Ducatis for a while, and I can afford them with their easy installment payment and what not, of course my first bike will be cheap one so I can wreck it with no regrets, but soon my Ducati will come.
Last year I bought a jasmine plant which almost died on me during that crazy heat wave that we had last july, but now it revived nicely , took months of work to do that, it’s a bit bigger but it needs still more work to fill nicely. My apartment smells great because it’s start to bloom again :). Jasmines are my favorite flowers, I grew up with a tree under my grandma’s place and I feel nostalgic when I smell it.
Montreal is smelling nicely too,flowers are blooming everywhere :).
I am going to take a project management course starting this fall, should be good to give up me brownie points to jump up the levels at any job :).
I want to learn a new language, not sure what though. Maybe Elvish :P.
2011 seems a good year, better than 2010 which btw was a pretty good one compared to the previous years. I had some really really tough years from 2006 till 2009. They are behind me :).
I need to take care of my bedroom, I have a bed but with no frame and no side tables , I should make it a bit decent like the rest of the place.
I am in the mood to have a project to build that needs a long time, not sure what yet. I have always had a thing for mechanical things, but I don’t have the skills necessary for that. Courses time? 🙂
I think I babbled enough for now…