May 252011

Regarding the job it’s a no, they went with a more experienced candidate.
But they told me that they really liked me and the way I interviewed and they asked if they can call me again in a month or so , because another position might open and they are still interested in me.
Will see.
I am still working on my side project and I am learning a lot, so all good :).

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May 252011

At what age people usually start appreciating what their parents did for them. For sure for most not teenage years, when most of them see their parents like annoying people.
I have awesome parents and an awesome brother. Love them dearly.

May 192011

So medical systems company called me again, still no final decision. They will inform me next week probably.

I have been networking, learning , bought lots of books and even checked out a place where you can rent a place in a coworking company thing… if the medical systems thing failed, I am going forward with my own project.

I got my package (ticket/rfid/armband) for Metallica and Satriani :). Considering going to HeavyMTL this year too (Kiss, Motorhead, Anthrax, Disturbed…)

And it’s 23 degrees outside :P.

May 132011

Today the medical systems company called me to update me on the situation, I am not out of the game yet.
They are still going through other candidates, and will reply to me in a week or so.
That’s neither good nor bad, actually better than I expected, it means I am still in kinda, if they don’t find someone better I might still have a chance.
I hope I impressed them with my theory and my how my brain organises stuff , also how I come up with solutions pretty quickly with eye to what might change in the future. I know that I am REALLY good at that.
I know my programming skills are not that high , so will see.

In the mean time I am happily learning more about web programming and designing so all good :).
Leaving that other company was really the best thing I did in 2011, I know for a fact that two people are leaving as soon as they find something else, 2 others are thinking about it, and another one if his legal situation changes will do it pretty quickly. In the time I was there from feb 2010 till end of aril 2011, out of (max) 55 people , 29 people got fired or resigned (some got replaced some not), it was a really stressful place to be. Most people doing the job of 2 or 3 people, but with less pay than anywhere else. Not a good place, and I predict it will crumble within 2 years unless some really drastic change happens. They were trying to change, but a bit too late… they need to completely overhaul and rebrand themselves for it to work, their reputation is really tainted all over the net.

In other news, I really miss that certain girl. not sure what to do about that, I emailed her some weeks ago, she never answered, maybe she changed her email address, or maybe she just ignored it. who knows. From now on, she will be referred to as Ms. Chick because that was her nickname in arabic, sort off.

May 082011

Well since I came to Montreal I kinda been detached from what was happening in Lebanon and the middle east, a big part because of my previous job was draining every waking hour of time for it, and maybe people have noticed that this blog has much less Lebanon related posts and instead they are more like personal ones.
So maybe I should change the url and the title of this blog to something else. Oh btw, some people ask me about why I “hate myself”, guys/gals please read the “about the blog” page up, I explained it. I do not hate myself, it’s just an expression kinda :).

Anyway, I am looking forward to actually find another job, really hoping I would get the medical systems one, and the minute I get the job I am calling my motorcycle school so I can resume the classes that I had to cut to reserve money aside. I am still up to my goal to travel the world on a motorcycle for a while, might be boring alone, so hoping that in 5 years I would meet a partner for that. Preferably a hot, cute, smart, funny girl 😛 . I don’t know a lot of people who ride motorcycles and from all the people I ever met there was only one girl who used to ride motorcycles, so finding a female partner for that might be hard. Oh well :), I got 5 years :).So my interview is on monday, wish me luck.

In other news, I have been tired and sick for like a while now, but starting to recover slowly, that previous job really drained me. Lesson learned for my next job, I will only do my job and that’s it. No extras, the only way I am gonna go big is to open my own business, which I will work on it, and any spare time/ effort will go towards that instead of improving the current company I am working for.

Since I became 30, it hit me how much life is short, and really losing a year on something you don’t want to be doing is losing a serious percentage of your life, and it’s one of the reason it affected me to quit that damn job, there is more to life than being behind the computer coding and building a product to a company that doesn’t really care about its users and employees. On the plus side, I know that aiming to get what ever I want is worth it even if it takes ages, at the end the process of getting it is as important as getting it.

I am not sure if because I have been writing about a certain girl in here or because she never really left my thoughts , I have been having recurrent dreams about her and they all good, I miss her. She has been an important part of what I am today, she has been a big part of accepting what I am and be less hard on myself, and also even that we haven’t been talking for close to a year, the anger that I had all resolved and the source was found because of my lack of proper communication, decision, acts , etc. In that period we were both really fucked up in one way or another and it affected everything. hope one day I’ll meet her again and tell her that personally.

I have been using a macmini since August and frankly I am liking it more and more, Linux is great for work but the convenience of mac is superbe, of course there are a few problems like all Operating Systems but as long as I have the terminal all is good, plus the Mac Store is really awesome plenty of cool free apps and I can just browse the database on the fly with proper ratings from other users so all cool :). I miss having multiple computers in my office room, I have now 3, but none of them are powerful. the macmini, an old computer and an old laptop, I need a powerful new machine with multi screens, will see what I get…

I have been drooling over the Ducatis for a while, and I can afford them with their easy installment payment and what not, of course my first bike will be cheap one so I can wreck it with no regrets, but soon my Ducati will come.

Last year I bought a jasmine plant which almost died on me during that crazy heat wave that we had last july, but now it revived nicely , took months of work to do that, it’s a bit bigger but it needs still more work to fill nicely. My apartment smells great because it’s start to bloom again :). Jasmines are my favorite flowers, I grew up with a tree under my grandma’s place and I feel nostalgic when I smell it.

Montreal is smelling nicely too,flowers are blooming everywhere :).

I am going to take a project management course starting this fall, should be good to give up me brownie points to jump up the levels at any job :).

I want to learn a new language, not sure what though. Maybe Elvish :P.

2011 seems a good year, better than 2010 which btw was a pretty good one compared to the previous years. I had some really really tough years from 2006 till 2009. They are behind me :).

I need to take care of my bedroom, I have a bed but with no frame and no side tables , I should make it a bit decent like the rest of the place.

I am in the mood to have a project to build that needs a long time, not sure what yet. I have always had a thing for mechanical things, but I don’t have the skills necessary for that. Courses time? 🙂

I think I babbled enough for now…

 Posted by at 12:35 am
May 052011

It’s with a medical systems company, more or less the same job I was doing before, but with the added benefits that I would be doing some good instead of feeling that I am in a company that doesn’t care about the users.
If it works out, I would be joining indirectly the battle against cancer :). I might have not succeeded to get into bioinformatics and help but this is close enough.
Cancer cells of the world your end is nigh !

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Apr 052011

I had a damn long dream at night and it was very weird. In this dream I was in several places, in Lebanon (Cedars and Jbeil) , Turkey (not sure about that one, but one of the policemen was talking in Turkish to me, I think so anyway), the UK in a train. Basically wherever I am I see a certain girl that I try to talk to but for some reason there is obstacle, like too many people on the stairs, or a long queue or what ever (I try to skip the queue in one incident and thus the policeman), but in the end I catch up with her … the weird thing it’s the same girl that I mentioned in the previous post (yeah the very cute girl).All the dream is about me in a certain place and she happens to be there, but like several wagons away and I see her going in while I am going in on the other cart, and in the Turkey incident (?) she was ahead of me in a queue to get to the top of the mountain with the cable car to ski , in Jbeil she was with another friend checking out the ancient city and she was across the street with a friend of hers and I couldn’t get to her because there was so much traffic, oh I didn’t have my cellphone that’s why I couldn’t talk to her, until I caught up with her when she went out of the train (at no specific station) and I did so as well.

 Posted by at 10:54 am
Mar 082011

So I will be in 30 on the 10th and I think grew quite a bit since I was 20, but the most growing I did was in the last 3 years.
In the last 3 years I learned multiples of what I learned in the previous 7 years.
Probably the biggest hurdle I overcame was depression. Yep I am depression free :).I worked a lot on my anger, I am much much calmer, not the point I want to be yet, but I will get there :).
I learned as well to be a bit selfish, that most people aren’t worth my time, or my investment and not to expect anything from people.
I learned to be less nice as well, if I want to do something and it conflicts with others, I come first :).Sacrificing what I want for others doesn’t pay anything.
I learned that even though the majority of people are not worth my time, some very selected few sure do. Other than my family of course, I realised who are real friends and who are just there by convenience. Real friends help you up when you are in shit, not disappear :).
I learned not see people in rose tainted glasses, if people lie and use you once, they will not change. No need to give them chances.Actually use them in return without feeling any guilt what’s so ever.
About career and work, I learned something important. Do not work your ass off for others, you won’t get anything other than more work , if you are on the bottom of the chain, people will claim your good work as their own and throw their shit that they don’t want on you. Work at the same pace as everyone else.
Relationships wise, if you care too much you are doomed, and if you don’t care at all you are doomed. A balance is important :). Oh and you know what women say they want from men? scrap that :). Do you know how you act among other men? That’s what they want but packaged in a softer way.Oh and you can never be a close friend with a woman who you find cute (will post something about that separately).
So here is to the 30s , the supposedly best decade of a man’s life. and here is to real friends :).