Jun 202011

A big part of me still wants to do a PHD. I am liking coding again, but those commercial products really are not interesting at all, all I think about are scientific applications.
I can’t do a phd now, I need first to get enough money so I can survive a while, because lets face it phd student stipends barely cover rent if I am living alone and I refuse to play the discover your unknown flatmate game. I had a really bad experience in 2006/2007 and I am scarred for life. As well I like my privacy and the ability to walk around naked in my place :P.
Will see what I do, I need first to let enough time pass because maybe there is a subconscious need to be a phd student in Edinburgh… So I need to eliminate that possibility and decide with proper reason.
As well if phd is on the horizon I would have to sacrifice my motorcycle tour dream or then I would have to do it much later in life.
Will see…

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Oct 152010

There are 4 types of phd student wannabes

1-The Academic: This the only phd student wannabe that actually wants to have a phd for realistic reasons, for a purpose. Usually a well balanced , hard working person, with a bit of eccentricity . Alot of times they are returning students, coming back to do a phd after some years at work.

2-The Immature: That one just doesn’t want to face the real world, so chooses to stay in Academia just to delay the inevitable.

3-The Delusional: The one that thinks that having a phd degree will open the road for better positions and better salaries, not realising that a phd will over qualify him them for most work and if they get hired they will ge the minimal salary that they would have gotten if they got a BS degree.

4-The dreamer: the person who would save the world with a phd.

Type 1 is the rarest…

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Apr 162007

1) Bush killed Superman: Christopher Reeves anyway,If  he wasn’t so conservative and allowed more freedom for Stem Cells Research, Superman might still be alive…

2)In Lebanon you hardly see disabled people or people with mental challenges or down syndrome, it is because their parents and families try to hide them from everyone else? or in Lebanon our genes are so good?(I doubt…).

In Edinburgh, I see them all the time, walking side by side healthy people, working normally despite their disabilities, being productive like everyone else.

So what is different about Lebanon? Shame of them?

3)I wonder what would my parents do if they come to Edinburgh and see all those punk and goth people walking around with 10s of piercings , multi colored hairs,and heavy black make up. Do they know that me and my brother love the goth style? I doubt it… when they saw his piercings they freaked out, then his tattoo it was a disaster… Lucky bastard. I am too hairy to put any tattoo except on my back… will get one when I get enough money for a huge back piece.

4) Today I felt too old to be studying, enough… 4 more months and its over for me. I will not do a PHD next year. Maybe in 5 years…

5)Finally, I am back in the dating game…

6)I cannot do the triathlon in September, the triathlon is gonna be held at Ben Nevis, the high foggy mountain from my hiking trip; its 21 kms up and down.That’s not the problem, I knew its the hardest triathlon ever, the problem its so hard and they do not want anyone to participate that they have a rule which states only people with 3 and more previously accomplished triathlon races can participate.

So what I am gonna do instead is keep training to do the 3 required triathlons in a year and a half (hopefully) then participate next September in the big triathlon.

7)Can’t wait for my flu to go away, so I can back to training. 2 weeks ago I have cycled 25kms my record till now, and I am so damn proud of myself. Next step…25kms with zero resting time :).

8)People ask me if I miss Lebanon, then they get surprised when I say not at all. I miss my family yes… but Lebanon? pfff… its good to wake up in the morning and not have to worry about the silly stuff that happens in Lebanon everyday, will I be able to drive to hamra today, or the traffic will keep next to barbar for half an hour? what time is the electricity gonna be cut today?  is the Internet connection can work today?, because I need to make a research…Will I be able to drive into the street without seeing a small scooter coming the wrong way rapidly ?  Will the day pass without someone making some stupid sectarian remark? Will I be able to say a hello to a girl passing in the street, just because I am passing next to her without her lifting her nose way up the air and give me the menacing look (el ja2ra)…

9)Speaking of girls, 4 years ago I used to be extremely shy even talking to a girl…any girl.Lebanese women used to strike fear in me, they have the I-am-untouchable-girl-unless-you-have-a-new-Mercedes-and-can-buy-me-dinner-at-any-place-that-I-fancy-anytime-I-want attitude (of course there are some exceptions) that changed a lot when I traveled to Europe in 2003 and saw there is nothing wrong with me.

And now in here, this is being reinforced… Sex life in Edinburgh is NORMAL. the way its suppose to be… :P. Well as much normal as it could be when there is some one as freaky and kinky as me :P.

10) I have an assignment due in 21 hours, I haven’t started yet.Others have been trying to do it for 2 weeks now… I think I am gonna finish before them.Heh…